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Am I Glowing
03:42
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Another week of heartache
Sharing my bed with my phone
Thank god it’s Friday
Thank god I’m still all alone
Another week of wondering
If it’s smart to try to make amends
Maybe I’ll see you out
It’s not my fault you’re friends with all my friends
I don’t miss you
It’s just that feeling when the sadness hits you
I get migraines when I try to not think about you
But trust me, I feel fine. I don’t care who you’re talking to
I’m so happy, god I really love my life
I don’t need someone to say that I look nice
This is paradise
Another pot of coffee
I made too much to just drink by myself
It's not about you, I'm crying about something else
Another weekend morning
God this sunny day is so surreal
Thank god I'm so mature
I love how peaceful my apartment feels
Am I glowing?
All this pain just means I'm growing
I get migraines when I try to not think about you
But trust me, I feel fine. I don’t care who you’re talking to
I’m so happy, god I really love my life
I don’t need someone to say that I look nice
This is paradise
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2. |
One Less Mistake
03:44
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Say you’ll never leave me, I know better
After all that we’ve been through I’m as lonely as ever
I left you alone, it drove you wild
I knew I'd make it on my own when I was a child
I never let you in, you never knew me
Without all your stuff my room is oh so roomy
I messed it up again
What’s another failed attempt?
I’m gonna let ‘em say
Whatever they’re gonna say about me
I’m gonna hide away, pretend that I’m glad no one has found me
Next time I’ll make
One less mistake
You say my attitude is unproductive
I’ve already concluded I can be self-destructive
It kinda freaks me out how you’re so steady
I want to say it’s not your fault that I wasn’t ready
I never let you in, you never knew me
Without all your stuff my room is oh so roomy
I’m gonna let ‘em say whatever they’re gonna say about me
I’m gonna hide away, pretend that I’m glad no one has found me
I’m gonna tell myself again and again I did all I could do
But it’s not true
No, it’s not true
I wanna be that girl you knew
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3. |
Know Me
03:53
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Knowing me, I was ready for it all to end
Too superstitious to mention you to any of my friends
You made me nervous
It killed me when you offered me a ride
And you’re so pretty
I look out of place sitting by your side
Before I know what I’m doing
I’m halfway to inviting you in
I would like to know you
Do you want to know me?
I would like to know you
Can I bring you home with me?
I would like to show you everything I am
When you talk to me
I can barely speak one paragraph
I didn’t mean to
But somehow I kept making you laugh
I like the way you touch me when you look at my tattoos
You’re so pretty
I lose track of everything I meant to do
Before I know what I’m doing
I’m halfway to inviting you in
I would like to know you
Do you want to know me?
I would like to know you
Can I bring you home with me?
I would like to show you everything, everything, everything
Honestly, a girl like you could ask for so much more
But something happened, and either way I had to make sure
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4. |
Dark and Stormy
04:50
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You wore me out around town
You showed me off
You wore me out
You dragged me down
You lured me in
I wanted out
You cracked a smile
You said I’m cute the way I frown
I said, “what do you take me for?”
And you took me
I wanted my life back
But there was nothing left, nothing left for me
I ventured off in the pitch black
But I found it all too dark and stormy
And you ended up with all the glory
You made a scene
You made it seem
Like all I did was
Think about myself
You’d change your mind
And start to cry
Apologize for
Putting me through hell
You told me I
Was one of a kind
When really I was
One of quite a few
You said I mattered to you
But it doesn’t matter to me what you meant to do
I let myself
Fall in love
With how the guys thought
You were just so cool
I didn’t pay attention
How all the girls seemed a little scared of you
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5. |
So Much Better
03:57
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I scare everyone I meet when I open up too soon
Nobody wants to hear it
My friends say they’ll never leave, but when I’m laying in my bed
I can’t help but fear it
It’s all in my head
It's all in my head
I’ll be the first to give advice
It isn’t gonna last forever
I’ll come out of this so much better
I’ll come out of this so much better
When it rains it pours
Poor me, poor me
But it isn’t gonna last forever
I’ll come out of this so much better
I can tell that i’m growing up, but I’m not sure if that’s good
I’m not sure at all
I’m wearing down everyone i love
And I’m sure they’d rather not get one more call
It feels good to get your validation
But I still feel alone
I know you want to help with my frustration
But this is something that I have to work through on my own
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6. |
Best Friends
04:03
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You always like what I try on
You always miss me when I'm gone
You’d talk with me ‘til it got late
And you hate everyone I hate
And I want it back
I want to be best friends again
And I want to be best friends again
I miss that happy feeling you used to give me
I was a happy introvert
I didn't know how bad it hurt
I felt at home in your car seat
You always used to be so sweet
And I want it back
I want to be best friends again
And I want to be best friends again
I miss that happy feeling you used to give me
I swear I'll be so good if you forgive me
You always like what I try on
You always miss me when i'm gone
You’d talk with me ‘til it got late
And you hate everyone I hate
And I want it back
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7. |
Grown Up
03:44
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I’m too high for this
I’ll save it for tomorrow
I’ll deal with it tomorrow
I don’t want to risk more existential sorrow
I’ll deal with it tomorrow
I just want to live in the now
I just don’t want to let anyone down
I’ll be grown up, I’ll go to Safeway
I’ll take my meds, I’ll use an ashtray
I’ll get some sleep on every weekday
I’ll make you super proud
I can’t tell you what’s coming
My degree taught me nothing
My fears made me colder
Wake me up when I’m older
I had big plans today
But who was I fooling?
Why did you assume
I knew what I was doing
It’s all just so confusing
I’ll be grown up, I’ll shave my legs
I won’t cry at work, won’t call my ex
Never lose my keys or write bad checks
I’ll make you super proud
I don’t know what to say
I can’t give you that closure
But I’ll blow you away
Once this all blows over
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8. |
Clean Cut
05:03
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You wish I was clean cut
I wish I could make a clean break
Yeah, maybe I’m a bit of a tough nut
But you can’t seem to keep me awake
You think that I’m lazy
Cuz I won’t do what you want me to do
You won’t think that maybe
It’s just that I don’t want to end up like you
Don’t bother me
Don’t bother me
Don’t bother me
Don’t bother with me
I’m not being crazy
I deserve what I want
I'm reacting appropriately
Don't tell me to be calm
You think you know what’s best for me, but you’re wrong
I don’t think you’re wiser
I guess I won’t know ‘til I’m older myself
For all the lessons you tried to teach me
You showed me I should learn from somebody else
I’m doing a good job
And I think deep down you know that it’s true
You roll your eyes at me when I’m talking
Do you hate me cuz I’m powerful too?
You think you're hurting my feelings when you call me frigid
You don't know that I'd happily burn my bridges
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9. |
Sleeping Next to You
04:34
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I've got a lot of heartbreak
It runs through my bloodstream
I had another nightmare
About my high school lacrosse team
I'm always stressed
That someone from my past will come to town
And want to talk about the things I worked so hard to live down
I want to be well-adjusted, I just don't know how
I really thought I would be better off by now
It's October fifteenth and it's a million degrees
I feel so worked up, I'm sweating through my sheets
It's a quarter to two
I need another breakthrough
I wouldn’t dare call you after what I put you through
I wish I was still sleeping next to you
I'm starting to forget how
It feels when you hold me
I'm telling all my friends that
I'm not really lonely
A part of me wants to talk about my biggest fears
But after all I’ve been through
I’m aching just to disappear
I want to just laugh about it
And I know I should
It feels so tempting just to leave this place for good
It's October fifteenth and it's a million degrees
I feel so worked up, I'm sweating through my sheets
It's a quarter to two
I need another breakthrough
I wouldn't dare call you after what I put you through
I wish I was still sleeping next to you
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10. |
The Worst
04:02
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I think I’m ready to get up now
I can’t take this headache no more
I spend an hour asking myself how
I spent the entire day indoors
Just falling behind
Deep down I know I can hold my own
As much as I wish you had stayed
There’s something sweet about being alone
As much as I wish it would fade
I’ll make up my mind
I dove into this loneliness headfirst
Of all the things I could be doing
This is probably the worst
I wanna make a little change each day
Maybe I am learning
Or maybe I’m fading away
I tell myself I won’t get in my own way
I’ll let myself out of my head
But when I end up making a little mistake
I sink back into my lovely bed
I say that I’m fine
I dove into this loneliness headfirst
Of all the things I could be doing
This is probably the worst
I wanna make a little change each day
Maybe I am learning
Or maybe I’m fading away
I stay home and blame it on the dizzy spells
How good could I be if I were someone else?
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